Light - A Ringing Bell

Sitting there….on the tail fringes of the flu….I found myself begging for a break in the clouds.

They’ve been dense thick with rain, lately.

“Lord, please. Make the clouds thin out just enough for the sun to come barrelling through.”

I pray it out loud as my kids watch me roll up my sleeves and sweatpants – them following in like fashion.

I need some sunshine.

Never mind that it’s too cool for bare skin – my body needs to make some Vitamin D.

I need sun to saturate skin. Yes. I need this process to happen – the fatigue has been fierce.

And watching those clouds thin…and beam down light onto my flesh….

…..I ask for a break in the clouds of my heart, too.

Because the light of faith has been a bit dim lately…..

All the things happening in our world…all the things being inflicted as I tap these keys, even – we’re clueless to so much of the pain happening – happening on our watch. Down the road…across the ocean – there’s so much rankness.

Sometimes – thoughts of it wear me thin. And while it’s rare nowadays – it can cause a bit of a famine in my faith.

So sitting their in my son’s rocking chair – all my white skin showing….I ask for a glimpse of Him.

I need Jesus to come and saturate soul.

I need Him to come and fill, so that I can feel – without my faith having to waver.

“Just an opening, Lord. Slip right through.”

And like the Vitamin D…the building of faith can be a process, can’t it?

Sometimes – we have big miracle moments when He plops right in. But other times, it’s a gradual provision….. a slow, silent procedure He does – when He sheds the light of faith right through our dark walls.

And so I sit there – in the sun….asking for the Son.

And if my history with Him repeats itself – He will fan my faith.

Because it all comes from Him, doesn’t it?

Even faith in Him – comes from Him.

Glory.

Show us Your glory Lord.

And help us to recognize it as such. Help us to see you being present – even in the quiet, small moments. Help us to seek….and find.

And Lord – please do fend off the fatigue. With all my pasty flesh begging for sun outside – all these crammed in neighbors here will thank You 🙂